I got nominated to do #letterformybaby on Instagram.. seen as I knew it was going to be long I decided to make it into a blog post..
Dear baby boy,
Where do I start with this.. you are the best thing to have ever walked into my life. I never knew it was ever going to be possible to love someone as much as I love you. I count my blessings every single day.
We may not have had the easiest start entering you into the world, but you arrived here safely.. that is all the mattered. Now it’s my job to keep you as safe as I can for the rest of your life.
For as long as I can remember I have always been broody, I have always wanted to be a mum.. I thought I knew what to expect, but in a way I was so wrong. You are so much more amazing than I could have ever imagined. Some days have been so tough, but they are soon forgotten by a smile that lights up the room, and the most contagious laugh in the world!
On the days I’m not feeling myself, I’m feeling down and upset.. one look from you and I can’t help but smile! You’ve changed my world in the best way I could have ever asked for. You are honestly my best friend!
I love the way you’re such a mummy’s boy, and hold your arms out to give me a cuddle.. and the way you sit and watch TV and hold my hand. You give the biggest kisses in the world too! I’m dreading the day you don’t ‘need’ me anymore. No matter what I will always be here for you though! No problem is ever too big that we can’t solve together, I hope you will always know that.
I love the bond that you and your daddy have. I can tell you are both going to be best friends. I didn’t think I could love your dad anymore than I did, until I saw the way he looks after you! Your little face lights up when he comes home from work. Daddy always seems to know how to make you laugh!
Today was actually your due date, and you turn one in 2 days time.. it has been the best year of my life. I can’t wait to watch you continue to grow, and make more amazing memories with you!
I promise to you I will do whatever it takes to give you the best possible life. You will always be in the centre of all the decisions I ever make. I may not be the perfect mum, and I probably never will be! I make mistakes, but these are things I learn from. One thing I do know is I could not love you anymore if I tried!
I love seeing you play and laugh with other babies and children.. I’m hoping that one day I can make you the best big brother in the world.
I have never met such a strong minded, determined and persistent baby. If you can’t do something you never let that stop you. You will keep going until you get it right! (You don’t get that from me though, I give up at the first sign something is hard!!)
Some people say your life is over when you have a baby, but I feel my life properly began when I had you.
I will love you forever and always,
No matter what..
P.s I’m currently writing this as you are screaming and refusing to go to sleep.. let’s hope one day you do learn how to sleep better.. otherwise as you’re reading this I may have started to get my payback!