You know that feeling when you look at someone and think your heart is going to burst, and you never knew it was even possible to love someone as much as you do? That’s what being a mum is. When you look at someone and think they are the most gorgeous thing you have ever set eyes on.. that’s what being a mum is. Being so proud of what may be the littlest things, but to you they are the biggest things ever.
Your baby is thriving and hitting new milestones, and you know that’s all from the help of you. You brought an amazing life into this world.
This is the closest I can get to explaining about being a mum. It’s one of those jobs that are actually indescribable! Something that you just can’t tell people how perfect it actually is.
Motherhood does not come without its challenges. But those hard days and sleepless nights are soon forgotten by this little smile you are given that completely melts your heart. Once you become a mum suddenly nothing else in the world ever matters. Your world revolves around this tiny little person, and you wouldn’t have it any other way!
Some days you feel like giving up, thinking it’s just too hard, but you have someone else to put before yourself now. It’s still important to look after yourself though, because remember.. they need you. So if you need a brief time out to help yourself, do it! Because they need you to be the best you can be. We all feel like failures at times, but just take a look at your child.. that’s the proof right in front of you that you are NOT failing!
You get this overwhelming feeling of love as you look at this tiny little human. You just hope that they will grow up to understand that they are your absolute world. You hope they realise you will do anything in your power to make sure they are out of harms way.
I constantly worry, about things that don’t even need to be worried about.. because I just want to make sure I’m doing right by my child. I worry I will make silly mistakes, or that something might happen when I’m not there. Feeling guilty over the smallest of things, because mum guilt IS THE WORST!
Deep down though, knowing I am doing everything I can, to give my boy the best possibly life he can have. I may not have all the money in the world, and be able to buy him amazing things. I may not have all the time in the world, because I have to go to work to make sure there’s food for him. I do however, have all the love in the world that I could possibly give.
Things weren’t always like this for me, at the beginning I was in a dark place. I’m going to write a separate blog post on this, because it’s important for people to remember they are not alone. If you don’t always feel these things, that does NOT make you a bad parent! Talk to someone and reach out when you need help.
Whenever your baby smiles at you, you did that.
Your baby’s first words, you taught them that.
When your baby’s poorly, your their comfort.
When your baby throws their arms out for a cuddle, they want you, they need you.
That little personality which is shining through every single day, you taught them to be the person they are becoming.
Remember your labour? You put your life at risk to being a beautiful life into the world. At that moment in time you do everything in your power to make sure your baby is okay. I learnt the scary way that labour doesn’t always go as smoothly as we imagine. But would I change it? No.
I count my lucky stars every single day for Freddie…
The day I gave birth to Freddie is the day I made a best friend for life. I’ve had more smiles, tears, laughter and tantrums in this past year and a half than I have ever had in my life.
The day I had Freddie was not the end of my life, it was only the beginning. It gave me a true purpose!